I thought I was growing to my peak of life but then it seems I’m just plain getting old when you think about it. After 1 month of rest, abstinence from running (besides the occasional chasing of the bus or rushing around), my shin is still hurting after I run. The intensity increases and the pain lasts longer when I run fast or longer distance. The MO doesn’t know why and I’ll have to wait another 2 weeks before I get to see a specialist about it.
On reading, I seem to be less capable of keeping focus, getting easily distracted when I hear people talking. I’ve this problem of being generally interested in people and things (kaypoh in other words). I’m not sure if there is a sign of getting old but I sure am a little disturbed by this myself.
On conversations, I have gotten particularly naggy nowadays, nagging at people to watch their weights, maintain their discipline, to find a passion, to get going with work, to accept my values and such.
I’ve however, been getting really positive about things and people like Ming Ren have always exclaimed how he fails to understand how I can keep on staying happy about all the things around me. My secret is merely the understanding the fact that many things that happens are beyond our control but whether to be happy and see the good things or to be irritated by all that is negative is a matter of choice. Negative tendencies can be reversed and the pros of things can be better appreciated.
Sharks, I’m imposing my values on others again…
I’m finally doing something useful on ERPZ. I had to convert it to a blog for the thinker/critic self. I used to do those stuff on this blog but it seems that I’ve really started to talk more about my life and experiences here so I decided to write more academic and possibly useful stuff over on that side. It’s the main face of the ‘erpz.net’ domain and so I think it should at least look like something more formal and work-related. Please read stuff there and comment! I’m hoping people would discuss those serious stuff over there.
Just 35 hours or so after my previous entry I fell even more sick, with temperature rising to 39.2 degrees Celsius and ended up with more medical leave that allowed me to stay at home for the entire week. So the whole of last week was mostly spent sleeping at home, feeling feverish, perspiring, popping pills or drinking bitter syrup. It was a terrible experience, and this time it really reminded me of the time I got the mild Bronchitis although it is just a really nasty case of upper respiratory tract infection.
It was so bad I nearly fainted in the bathroom in the middle of the night when I got out of bed to visit the toilet. I was shouting for help when my vision suddenly became faint and then went white and my entire body was numbed. It took 10 minutes or so for me to recover completely and by then I was totally soaked in perspiration.
It took 2 more days for the fever to subside and for me to stop feeling tired although I had a week-long course of anti-biotics. It’s a good chance to refresh my immune system though, I haven’t fall sick for a long time. The only bad thing is that my Mum fell a little sick after an entire week of taking care of me and it feels really bad that I have got to return to camp just when I get better and I’ve no chance to repay my Mum by helping to take care of her while it was her turn to fall sick.
I’m done on my 494th day in the army, with 235 days more to go (thanks to the fact that my ORD date falls on a Sunday) and for the first time in my National Service life, I had to take a Medical Cert to rest at home. Apparently the sudden cease to my running training, infused with a night of cycling on the road coupled with a BBQ with the class to conclude a busy day on Saturday was too much for my body to take – I woke up yesterday afternoon from a nap with a severe sore throat and this morning the feverish feeling I was experiencing prompted me to report sick at the Polyclinic. At the registration they took my temperature and it turned out to be a 37.8 degree Celsius, rather startling for a time like this because hospitals and such are panicking over the H1N1 flu virus matters.
I entered the consultation room and soon the verdict was out: 2 days MC, fever resulting from the throat inflammation – I needed plenty of rest for the body to engage in the war with the infection and that’s what I did, sleeping almost the entire day and waking up only to take the prescribed pills and taking my temperature. I was suffering from the typical feverish feel, a hot feeling inside the body without the ability to perspire, even until now. The last time I felt almost so terrible was last September when I was suffering from the same sort of infection but I didn’t obtain an MC and eventually recovered from a night of sleep in camp. This time is definitely much more serious, almost bordering the time before enlistment when I had mild Bronchitis and was having fever on and off for 5 days.
I guess this illness signifies a pit stop from work for me; I’ve been slogging for quite a while now and lately the changes happening at the workplace is getting on everyone’s nerves. This is one of the rare times when I actually felt incredibly frustrated with the army. Usually I take things pretty well as they come but this time the changes were a little overwhelming. I had to console myself with the thought that when I leave the army for society, changes of greater magnitude and degree would have to take place inevitably and they can affect my life way more than army does (eg. loss of my paycheck, lack of time for my family, having to work in rather adverse conditions); then it doesn’t feel that bad after all.
